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Thursday, January 27, 2011
Hey . Hi . Hello .
Today like fuck. Slept early around 6 I think. Early lah sgt. Slept without any drug ok ! BEST ! Then woke up at 5pm =.= I know. Tell me about it. Seriously I have issues. Kelam kabot sakk cuci mukerh sumerh. Cos I need to go to the bank to withdraw money. & I couldn't =.= cos all bank closed. Sooo ate maggie only lahh. Haishh. Haiyooo. Watched Kuchi2 Hota Hei @ home. Like seriously. Me & lil sis have issues. We keep watching this industani movies like damn. -.- So yeaa. Today on, no more lovey dovey shit & no mood to critisize that KUTU BABI, cos I think I've grown up.
I told lol sis just now. I said I was confused. I told her, maybe its time for me to let go. I mean yeah, I miss him for sure. But I miss Yusri too. I miss many others too. But all of them I could let go. So I was thinking. Why can't I let him go? He told me clearly already. He's attached lahh & he dont want me to put my hopes up lahh. He say don't wait for him lahh. Told me to go find another guy lahh. What's up with that man? You think what? I cannot get another guy is it? HELLO~~~ Open ur sepet eyes brother. I dont need to find cos they will find me. Like how YOU found me again and again. So please stop offending me like Im your bitch of something. I had enough. E N O U G H. Ok I keep saying this but I still miss him you know. I miss him truckloads. Abang told me he paitao-ed abg yesterday.. So yea.. Maybe I should just accept the fact that he doesn't like me. But why did he call yesterday? I mean. DAMN WHY I NEVER PICK UP !!! =.= I have to like stop whining.. Lil sis is like complaining much. Haissshhh. Can't help it though. I really want to meet him. I really really do. But I don't get it. Maybe, he avoiding me like this, he wants me to like forget him or something. But lets face it ayang. My love for you will never fade. My love for you is stronger actually. Cause you keep making me miss you. Hahaha. The more I miss you, the more I think of you you know. Im sorry I didn't pick up your calls. Hais. You just keep calling me at the wrong time ! Aiyah . Please call me ASAP. Im like fucking missing you.
Okay besides all this mushy2 shit, I just figure out something... This is disappointment I have in me. I feel disappointed towards him. I read back the msges I had with the KUTUBABI. & the times I was so down. The times I was so bloody lonely. The time I was on the urge of breaking down. He was never there for me. He never was there. To comfort me, to give me encouraging words. To hug me when Im crying. He was never there. So why am I like loving him?? Why ? Let nature take its course. I dont want to think about anything anymore. The next time I see him, we will talk serious things. Enough of playing hide and seek anm. I have a hospital apointment to go to next 2 weeks & I need him by my side.
Ayang, get real okay. Stop lying to yourself.
Love, Ahgirl Cinaaa Labels: hide and sick
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