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Saturday, January 29, 2011
Hello . Hi . Hey .
Just now slept like soo freaking late -.- Around 11 am. Watched Khabi Kushi Khabi Gham. Wanted to sleep but seriously, cannot sia. Went to Mustapha centre @ around 6 till 7 plusplus. Overbudget man. All lil sis fault lah. Haiyahh. Went back home took results again but it was negative. Heartbroken. You tell me about it. Im hurt. @ the same time angry. Suddenly all my heartpain energy inverted to hatred to revenge. Im confused, & I dont know what Im feeling. But what I know, and what I had figured out was that, HE doesn't love me. I finally accepted that fact. I loved him cause I thought he loved me. But he don't. What a stupid girl. I took that long to realise that. Aiyo.
You say you love me. What do you know about me? Whats my favourite food, drink, colour, song? You dont know anything about me. When you said you love me. What was your defination of love? Yes I have finally figure it out. You were just using me. I never wanted to admit it. But now I do. To everybody who had told me that he was just using me, Im sorry for fighting back with all of you. Now Im declaring, I, Shaliza, admit that all of you are right. I am wrong. I WAS WRONG. The guy whom I've always looked up upon. The guy whom Ive always been proud of is a JOKE. We are friends. Thats it. Nothing more. I was wrong. I was so wrong.
I waited for your call, waited for your visit. I heard stories about you. Usually I can ignore them. But this time no. I agree with them. Read this baboon. You're everything I thought you never were You're nothing like I thought you coul've been But still you live inside of me So tell me how is that? You're the only one I wish I could forget The only one I'd love to much to not forgive Ans though you break my heart. you're the only one And though there ae times that I hate you Cause I can't erase The time that you hurt me And put tears on my face And even now while I hate you It pains me to say I know I'll be there at the end of the day
You know how much you had hurt me? But I dont think you care at all right ? I mean love comes along with care. You dont care for me neither do you love me. I was just an idiot. I want to forget you. But I keep forgetting to forget you. DAMN. Okay. Lets like stop talking about that doodoo head. Lol. Everyday talk about him. I also tired lah. So niwayy. Tomorrow gonna like go to the hairstylist with lil sis. Hey. Skali skale pamper myself lah weii. Stress stress stress about that gundu head also no use mahh. Im gonna be like before again. Just you wait and see bebeh ! :DDDDD Oh andand. I wanna like tambah my tatoo. And my eye there. I want to put a teardrop :D And then.. I want to make at my chest, a broken heart. So I will always remember how that idiot had hurt me. Okay till here only aites? Byebye!
Lots of love, AhgirlCinaa Labels: go away shooo
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