Hello ? Saaaaaaaaaaaaaaap .
I went back home like on 5 plus in the morning today -.-
Re-recorded a song of "baby" with Niyaa. The time people just woke up to go for work,
I & my sister were getting ready for bed. Seriously. I can't even sleep properly now.
Drank few bottles of beer, still can't sleep. In the end swallow what I always swallowed, & fainted.
I woke up at 7pm. Wow.
I looked at my phone, and guess what. He didn't even called.
I thought he would. I really really thought he would. But he didn't. Its been 6 days since I hear his voice. I missed him alot. But I guess he never. He can call my abang. But he never called me.
He didn't even asked aout me. I guess he really had forgotten about me.
Maybe his relationship with his girl is okay now.
What am I waiting for. Even now, Im waiting for his call.
I was so confident he will call me today.. You know, I got that feeling. But I was wrong.
For the first time, I was wrong. Wahlao. He can tahan ah.
I cannot sia. Haiss~
Seriously !!!!! I just so tired of living !!!! What was he thinking sia ?!?!?
See the picture ontop? My name? Nor Liza? Lols.
He will always call me that. And I will scream at him
" My name don't have Nor lahhh! "
And he will laugh like IR baboon. Hahahahaha.
Thinking about him just make me laugh. I miss him. I miss him. I miss him.
The second picture is me and my Kakak.
The girl whom I've always looked up upon. The girl whom I've always been so proud of.
Even tho we are not blood, we are closer than ever.
But she left me. Just like how he left me.
Left wthout even saying a single word. And she msged me, saying that she felt that she hadn't been a good sister towards me. She had talked about me, and did so many sins towards me, yet I still forgive her. She said she felt that she was making my life difficult.
He said he didn't want me to be stress and always thought its better for him to leave me.
I dont understand you people. Can you stop forcing yourself to do things??
I'd rather do nothing than do something I don't love. Get me?
Stop changing things. Don't play God and try to force yourself to stop doing things.
If you are happy being with me, stay with me. Why are you leaving me?
Maybe it is my fault. I just don;t know how to show love towards people I love.
I just treat them as horrible as ever. But you just don't realise that I really do love you. I'm sorry.
I trasure people I love alot. I just don't tell them. Maybe I should change. I really have to.
What if tomorrow never comes??
What if my time were up? Would he know how much I had loved him?
Will he remember me? Would my love I gave in the past, would be enough to last?
If tomorrow never comes.
Haissssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss~
Its monday, he will call me. That was what my heart had told me. But he didn't.
Fuck my heart -.- HAIYAAAAAAYAAAA~
*bang head on wall*
Ayang, If you're reading this. I waited for your call y'know.
Where are you? Were you at work? Cause if you were, you would had called me ))):
Or did you forgot my number ? I remember the first time I gave you my number.
I just told you once, and you remembered. Till now.
Sooo clever lah. Lols.
Haiss. Ayang ... I cannot lahh. I thought I want to leave you.. But I cannot.
I just C A N N O T !!
Kalau dah jodoh, tak ke manerhh.. You always said to me...
Ok ok ok ok ok ok ok ok !!
Stop stop stop stop .
I nak crack my neck .Ooooooh~ Daaaap.
Lols. I MISS U LAHHH BODO , what are you doing !!!
Since you are gone, I takk nakal2 tau . )))))):
Ahhhhhhhhh~ I crazy alreadyyy .
Speachless. Pause awhile.
Lalalallalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalallaallaallalalaalallaallalalalaallalaaaaaa~
JUST CALL ME OK !
K BYE !!!!
Love,
Nor Liza =.=
